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Like if I can’t make it due to travel to a funeral or I can’t make it to a wedding due to another wedding on the same day
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I fear this because as a kid my parents were estranged from my mother side of the family and I always felt such lost by not knowing them. As a teenager we got close again and I softened my mothers anger towards her family. I was a big part of why they reconciled and I have pride in that. However, if we miss some thing all the pain of that loss from childhood comes back to me almost like white people describe as PTSD.