I’m suppose to graduate in August. First 4 semesters were amazing. I felt I was learning a lot doing great. Straight As.
Now I’m slowly deteriorating. Anxiety everyday. Crying episodes everyday. My teacher doesn’t lecture or teach us. All he does is assign us 13 chapters to read each week, no study guide or any direction on what material to focus on. I’m so overwhelmed. At this point I’m debating if I even want to be a nurse anymore. If I’m this unhappy daily, how happy would I be when I’m an actual nurse? I thought this was something I wanted to do. But I guess it’s not. The horrible feelings I get thinking about it makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. My chest feels like it’s going to explode from anxiety. All I do is sit at home alone all day and read and read and read. I feel like I’m falling deeper and deeper into a depression. I try to write positive affirmations and I try to meditate to relieve my anxiety. It doesn’t help. I still feel like I’m going to explode. This semester started in March, I have now lost 8 lbs. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I’ve reached out to my schools counselors and they are no help, all they tell me is “keep studying, take deep breathes”
I don’t want to regret my decision if I do quit. But I also am so tired of being so unhappy and anxious 24/7. I wish I could take a mental break and just breathe and relax and not worry. I’m so overwhelmed and scared and unhappy..