I haven't talked to anyone who wasn't selling me something in all of February. Should I kill myself?

I'm just so scared of people... And sad. I feel like I have raw, painful blisters all over my insides. I don't know what to do. My mother just died, so that could be it. She was a single parent, and I have no siblings, so I won't be missed. I realized recently that with her gone, there's no reason I couldn't just end it. I think my asocial nature has gotten worse since she died. I didn't exactly keep track, but I think this is the longest "streak" I've ever had. Will I keep getting worse? Human contact seems to make the rawness go away for awhile. Can I get less anxious, or at least, keep from becoming more so? Am I going to be okay? Or will I only get rawer? How long should I wait to find out?