Iโm 22 and Iโve always had the worst luck with guys. I met my 1st bf online a few weeks ago and he dumped me last Sunday after taking me out on a date. And it was the first time I ever went out with a guy. What was his reason? It was because he doesnโt do lgdr (he lived in CT and I live in NY). When I got home, I messaged another guy. Him and I have plans to go on a date soon but I am freakinโ anxious because what if I donโt get a second date with him. Or what if he loses interest and ghosts me before that? What will I do then?!? The stress has even made me send a text to my ex about how miserable I am and I hope it weighs on his conscious.
My friend asked why I want a relationship so badly. I told her itโs because I want stimulating sex, someone to love me, someone to someone to hold me after a long day, someone to confide in, and someone to go on dates with. She then reminded me that every relationship comes with baggage. I told her I would gladly take that baggage if a relationship is healthy and positive for the most part.
Another friend asked that I should be happy being single because I can focus on myself. I told her I want someone to shower with love and to devote my time to.
My father said that I should let Jesus take the wheel. I told him I turned my back on God because one of the Beautitudes states that those who grieve will one day laugh. Well, I have been in a state of grief since I was 13 because iโm single and I have not laughed since.
What should I do?