Okay so first off, I'm emetophobic (the irrational fear of vomit). I tried to just let myself do it but it's not that simple.
I can't eat or drink or sleep because my stomach is so full and bloated and I feel sick. Two days ago I did a saltwater flush that made me go to the bathroom only 3 times and even afterwards I still felt no relief. It was my birthday that day so I had a slice of cake and a bottle of water. Then the day after that I ate some eggs and another slice of cake and a bottle of water. I couldn't eat or drink much of anything because I was in so much pain.
I woke up feeling terrible so I tried doing another saltwater flush since laxatives no longer work but the that didn't even work this time. I drank a lot of water today but barely peed and I still feel full with the water. I even forced myself to eat some chicken today thinking that maybe I felt sick because I was hungry but that didn't help
I was desperate for relief so I went and got an enema, did that and was only able to hold it in for about 3 minutes. I ended up crying on the toilet but I still haven't had a bm. I'm scared and feel terrible and I've already been to the hospital 4 times now (where they misdiagnosed me as an anorexic for starving myself to avoid being sick BECAUSE of how constipated I am). I'm just so scared. I don't know what to do and my mom's fed up with me.