Imma be honest I'm not sad nor happy, I dont know how to explain how I'm feeling. I don't know how to feel or how to feel or how I'm feeling? I don't know. I'm lost. Wishing I had someone to talk too. Idk
You are normal, life doesn't come with a dancing clown waiting to make us happy. sometimes we're up other times we are down and then there is the in between.
You are not depressed. Our society keeps telling us we have to be happy all the time but that is not true. Most people are just neutral most of the time. Life is not always filled with high and low extremes so if I were you, I wouldn't worry much about it.
It sounds to me by your explanation that you’re feeling numb. This is a common symptom of depression, although, it doesn’t mean you have depression. If you show other signs of depression, i.e. Appetite changes, sleeping habit changes, suicidal thoughts or lack of interest and focus etc, then it’s more likely you have depression. Maybe you just feel this way because you’ve got nothing to be happy about or maybe you just can’t express your feelings like others can.
I know how you feel, it is just weird cuz you want to be okay amd even you try it but it seems that your efford isnt worthy at all. You can beat that feeling, just try to find something that make you happy, if talking to someone makes you happy, you can count on me :)