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Additional Infos : i have a thoughts that i'll have + Languages , Knowledge , Skill , Thoughts , Reality , it is a part of what i have as a Reality as i Act in order to make Reality Act in me ''Exchange'' Me to Reality
i was introvert since 0 from others so when i grow up i had thoughts about how bizarre a human is as so i was made fool of , Tricked , Violented , Lowly classed , multiple times even til near age 17 , in age 18 i'm a kind of person that doesn't intercate with , make fool of , low class , others my Mental state will have to technicalize itself renew it in the world.
''mom'' grow up in rent rooms and a hideous old two store house in a Criminal District in a Valley in age 16 was handed to her Stalker ''Dad'' then a divorce then a return then a divorce reason is no house , cheating , no fience Post it mom had a breakdown as she had no place or fience to own one and had to be in her parent's house in age ''30s''≈ and had a drug addiction as so she gave her fiences to imaginations ''sacrifices'' | ''host offer'' + had her face damaged ,Grandma made her go out !
+ Info : Post-divorce Mom after divorce was doing a remarriage with a 70s Old Foregine to immigrate and divorce there so grandma made her change rooms with aunt ''room smaller / no necessity'' that incompeted her so mom had no respect for grandma so when she tried to redo it Grandma made her change rooms with ''no lie'' public toilet sized room that incompeted mom even worse so mom get out to rent room that are 75% Literal **** 25% Meh Post it mom called grandma if she can return, so was done !
when return but this time mom became differnt and had some wise in her she used it in installing her in the second room by installing house necessity and renting some grounds. but for some cases problems happened so out of fear of another similar situation that the mechanism won't work i caused problem as an alternate source which made me get outside in, Dark Night, Moony Night, Rainy Night, Cold Night, Fine Night, walking and resting for the sunrise and return to the house, to shall redo it !
This Story had me change my mental state that i wasn't sure if my act is Reality or illusion what if it is a reaction to the world as for order to be chaos must also be what if it is the same those thoughts made change in a biological level that i'm a person that have a thing which makes me a world person
