What can you never erase from you mind?

people i used to be really close with but i'm not friends with anymore. people leave but how they go always stays.

Being betrayed by those I thought to be closest to me. Trust is something I never fully give anymore. I always expect to be lied to or double crossed, but that's okay. It's taught me to keep anything important to myself, even if that makes me seem boring..

How my Mom used to listen to my music with me every Saturday.
And she liked it.

A 9.2 earthquake I survived

death of my father :(

My past lovers.

My favorite teacher, who died a year ago today!

Me? My extremely long history and timeline. I have learned to disassociate from a great deal of it on a selective basis, but my own long and often sordid history isn't something that can be erased.

Attempts to alter my past memories - by myself or others - I'll always know the primary linear timeline i lived,and see the altered memories as fragments and shards of the original.

Some things that have been said to me.

On the darkest of days I summon up the smile on the face and in the eyes of my late beloved partner.

My best friend dying. Today was the anniversary of his death and yesterday was his birthday. He would've been 18.

Your memories

My dad coming into my room at my Nans (his mum's) over three years ago and telling me that my grandma had died (she was having an operation but she was 85 and her body was weak and frail and she died on the table) and then nearly two years later him coming into the kitchen at his house when I was having breakfast to say my grandad (My mum's dad) had died (it was more expected though as he was in hospital and had heart failure but it was still really upsetting). Two unpleasant memories that will stay with me for life.

It is impossible for me to do it. Because I cannot go inside my mind to do it.

Watching my mother dying in front of me.

A dream you have had your entire life

1) How someone who is interested in me goes unnoticed due to my aloofness caused by several hurtful experiences before. Now we are separate apart in different continents. Idk when again I will find someone who is deeply in love with me (be it a friend or a lover) and I feel the same way. I really really hope we meet and still feel the same way towards each other.
2) FFF: ******* (adv.) fake friends.
3) The time I said I hope to be a champion in an interschool sports competition and the next year I did.

Old men ????????

My parents doing sex

Abuse from a narc

Betrayal, but I learned from that sh$$

The songs
"Inchworm"
and
This Is My Lovely Day"
from Saturday mornings with my mum.
I think I am the same generation as Bannibal One who first raised the Saturday cherisheds.

The love of my life breaking my heart and then throwing his new gf in my face, after I poured my heart out to him.

The end zone of the football field , that I ran into for my first HS touchdown , all the purple & gold chalk lines & a sivler shark !

The things that make you question the purity of your soul.

Everything I learned in freshman geometry class

a terrible death

Death pool......

Playing in a baseball game (pickup) making a throw from deep left field to the catcher backing up the runner coming home from second base. He was trapped, but unfortunately no one was at third to record the out.

Many bad things I've done during psychosis episodes