I know that calling a woman a slut and slut shaming is wrong etc, but I still feel awful. I'm not a promiscuous person, I wouldn't hop into bed with anyone usually. At the time I thought that he and I had a special bond. We f***ed in a tent at a festival of all places, not classy at all, and though it felt amazing at the time, a few weeks later now I loathe myself for it. I'm lying to all of the people around me about it because I'm so scared that they'll think that I'm a silly little whore, and I don't usually lie about anything, so the guilt of lying and fear of being found out is killing me. On top of all of the guilt is the fact that I can't even be in a relationship with him because he lives in Essex (very far away from me) and that just makes it almost a one night stand, even though I have strong feelings for him. I don't want HIM thinking that I'm some cheap easy girl who has just discarded him or just wanted sex. I genuinely like him, so much that now not being with him kinda hurts.
How the hell do i deal with these feelings?