my mother makes me cry, how can i get through this ?

My mother is a very negative person who complains, and yells often but i always respect her enough to let her be without conviction. I sit and listen to her whenever she has something to say.

on days when i feel like my life has some sort of meaning, i can always count on my mother to make life seem meaningless. sometimes, i will quietly walk into my room, lay in bed staring at the ceiling feeling the tears fall down my cheeks . i m not sure what to say, i just lay there quietly and let myself cry in the silence of my bedroom.

i know my mother will never change . if i tell her how much she hurts my feelings, she will walk away and ignore me.

i ve attempted suicide a couple times. i am on medication now, and i go to therapy regularly and try to take responsibility for my mental health.

i want a happy relationship with my mother i just don t know what to do anymore at this point. i feel like i ve tried everything .