How do I get out of this depressed mood? I just want to die, because I've run out of patience?

This year doesn't seem to have been about anything. I'm so tired and bored with everything right now. I'm tired of trying to look for ways to make my life enjoyable even when I'm in such depressing times. Nothing really makes any sense right now, and at the moment I'm a little bit sick of it. I've wanted to take my life so many times. I'm bored of this game of cat and mouse. This year has just felt like a steaming pile of crap. It's just been depressed mood after depressed mood and bad day after bad day. I've felt hopeless many times this year. Now I want to commit suicide.