Will I go to hell if I kill myself?

Only God will determine whether a person receives eternal life or eternal death. However, God gives life and only He can take it away.
Right now your situation may be bad but think of Job in the Bible. Although he was a good man he went through so much pain and yet he persevered. In the end, Job grew in faith and with God's help he overcame the disaster that came to his life. Remember that God will not send you a challenge that you cannot overcome. Also, we may not understand why things are the way they are, but God has a purpose for everything.

Hell is just a bad, human idea,
not an actual place that anyone goes to.

I absolutely reserve the right
to terminate my life,
any time I judge that choice
to be my best option.

Judge carefully.
There are no do-overs.

Just a point of curiosity:
Does your problem
involve a persistent fungal infection?

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Regards,

John Popelish

The end is not the answer. We are all in this together. Don't just give up. There's lots of living left, in this life, not the next.

If you have not received Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior before death, you will go to hell. Please read the New Testament, starting with the Gospel of John, before doing anything drastic. It changed my life.

No. Please try to know it before you jump into any such hasty or wrong steps. Discuss it with your beloved parents or your own Mentor or some good Samaritan neighbors.

First and foremost, it's not our place to judge you. That really depends on your relationship with God. If you die with sins in your life, then you will go to hell, whether you kill yourself, or some idiot drunk hits you with their car.

Second, if you have a relationship with God, He will give you purpose, but if all you can think about is suicide, you need to reconsider what kind of relationship you have with Jesus Christ, because Jesus said "come to me all you who are heavy laden and burdened down with life, and I will give peace (or rest) to your soul."

The point is, if you have never yielded your life to God/Jesus, you WILL go to hell, and if you HAVE yielded your life to God/Jesus, you won't WANT to (NEED to) kill yourself, so you need to take a good long look at your life and cry out to God for His grace, mercy and forgiveness. Then yield your life to Him by repenting of Sin, and develop a relationship with Him and find out what HE wants you to do with your life. (Yielding means obeying, but obeying implies you seek Him to find out WHAT He wants you to do to obey.)

The reasons why we are allowed to suffer are outlines in hte Bible: James 1:2-4 ; 1 Corinthians 11:30 & James 5:12-15 ; Hebrews 5:8 ; 2 Corinthians 12:7 ; 1 Peter 4:16 & John 9:1-3.

Well, here's the thing. No matter how bad you think you have it someone else has it worse and manages to find joy and be productive.

Yup

Bye