Well good luck with all that... if you do this stuff now? You're going to be sorely disappointed. Boys your age have no clue what the hell they are doing and it will be over in 10 seconds or less.
I haven't been abused. I've seen porn and I masterbate almost everyday. I just think it will feel SOO GOOD. Does it? I mean maybe when I get older Me and my boyfriend will use a condom so I won't get pregnant. And I have sex toys so shut up