I know, it must sound like I am lunatic, but I can assure you I am not.
I am 22 years old. I was in a 4 year relationship before and 2 years of it was open. I asked if we could and it just happened. I am finding dating very difficult because I know exactly what I don't want and the other person usually wants all of those things. I don't want to end up single for the rest of my life, but I can easily see myself headed in that direction.
The reason I want an open relationship is because I want variety. I don't want to have one penis for the rest of my life or for years at a time. I like sharing new experiences with people intimately. I am not a very jealous person. I think most people end up cheating in relationships anyways, so it makes sense to me.
I don't want a marriage because both my parents are divorced and the battles they went through were horrendous. I don't want to be trapped in something that I cannot get out of easily if I needed to.I don't need a ring to symbolize love.
I dont want children because I don't like them, honestly. I am very awkward around children also, I just have no motherly "instinct" as people call it . I prefer to have just dogs in my life.
How do I explain all of this to someone......How do I find someone like me??