I'm 16 and a Guy
I've always had a Hard time making friends but I did have a few back in elementary but by Middle school I didn't really have Any friends until 8th grade and then the friends I had I kinda ruined my relationship with them
Cause Basically I'd message them On my phone and if they didn't respond right away I'd assume they hate Me So I would just constantly message them and then eventually Start messaging them Stuff like **** You I hate You die and **** cause idk I had this idea if people didn't Reply to me they hated me but yeah then by the end of the year I was well known as this really unstable Guy but then I was home schooled and in my opinion I got better but then today I realized I still do have the tendency to get really angry and Sad Over someone not Replying to a message (cause I messaged a Online friend Hey what's Up and they never responded even though they were online) and I messaged him a few more times And then I nearly started Crying and then I got really angry and wanted to Type **** You to the guy but
I've gotten better with that like I no longer start spamming and saying profanity to people when they don't respond right away
I'm just wondering why I Do this if it helps (my mom is kind of crazy she has paranoid delusions that people are stalking her And also My mom is extremely religious and km a atheist also My mom never really allowed me to have friends when I was younger or now like whenever I had one she'd just instantly not like them so .