Ok I'm not looking for attention, I just need help.
Now we have got that out of the way, I can tell you my story:
I'm 13 and I hate myself. I hate my body, I hate my face, I hate everything about myself. I haven't been to school properly in months because I have Anxiety. Now I am starting to think I have depression too. I cry all the time and I'm so scared of everything. I hate everyone, either because they have let me down or because I think they are judging me. Some days, I am ok with my body, the some days I feel unbelievably fat. I am unbelievably fat. I'm overweight, not obese, yet I wish I was skinny so bad. I have tried to lose weight but it never works. Food is my worst enemy. I try and starve myself then I eat more to make up for it. Even eating the right amount of food makes me hungry, and I always feel like I need to eat. My parents have pretty much openly said I'm fat, my underweight 19 year old sister has a smaller waist than I do and no matter how much exercise I do I can't lose weight. Last year I skipped lunches and lost weight and I know I have gained a bit more weight since then. What people don't understand is that I WANT to starve myself. I hate the feeling of hunger so I always give in, it's worse than cracking my head open to me. I look at my sister and my mother and they are like sticks. My father isn't fat. He's average! So why am I so fat?