This is really a bad fear and if you don't do somthing about it, it can get worse, having a serious impact on your life.
The sad part is this fear is just plain not necessary.
There is nothing wrong with spiders other than they have a bad reputation, truly undeserved, they ar not the bad guys.
Perhaps if you read my answer below, it will help you understand your fear a bit and help deal with it.
Try to follow all the links. Hope this helps:
https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20150608012446AAfueLt
參考: Been around spiders 50 years.