My husband and I married too quickly. I really did not know him, nor him me. We were just "in love" and he seemed like the perfect guy for me.
Soon after getting married and moving in together, I realized I made a mistake. Turns out his is an alcoholic (I knew he drank some). But, he's a raging alcoholic. At first, he was drinking whiskey and once he got enough in him, he became really mean and we would get into screaming matches because I didn't know how to handle it. He lost his job a month after we were married, and it took him nearly 4 months to find a new job. During that time things were really bad. But, I kept holding on because I made the commitment and wasn't willing to just give up.
Things came to head last year, when he went on a rage fit and started throwing dishes and punching holes in the walls. I ended up calling the police because I could not get him to stop. He was arrested for Criminal Tresspass. He hasn't touched Whiskey since that night, but he still drinks beer or malt liquor, but his attitude is not so bad on those.
Skip ahead...a week after our 1st anniversary he cheated on me. I wanted to end things then, but due to financial retraints I couldn't justify it. I went to counseling...
...he refused. And he has since cut out the other woman (was only with her twice). Things between us have gotten a lot calmer, but he seems so disinterested in me now. Some days he's my husband, some days he's my roommate, other days it's like he's a stranger or like I'm invisible. I just don't know how much longer I can take this. I want to be loved and cared for and wanted. Anyways, should I take this new position and not tell him and put the extra money in a savings account?
I know I should have filed already, it's not just financial reasons, I made a commitment and I really wanted this marriage to work. I put all I had into it.
@sheloves, please read my updates, also.
The house we live in is my mother's house. She doesn't live here, but I have nowhere else to go. He would have to leave. I can't just up and go, unfortunately, because I do have a 13 year old daughter, also.
@UnderValued, your assumptions are all completely wrong. I don't even know my father and I don't like "manly" men. There was no void in my heart when I married him, I married him because I do love him, he's just not what he portrayed himself to be and it's my mistake for being love blind.
@Vespa, a little of both as far as affording to living on my own and a lawyer. To everyone, I am not afraid of my husband nor do I believe he would ever hurt me if I told him to leave. That night I called the police I wasn't scared of him, I just couldn't get him to stop damaging the house. He was basically throwing a tantrum like a child.
@UnderValued, obviously your definition of a "manly" man differs from mine, then. And no, plenty of therapy helped me with my fatherless issues. I never needed any one to fill that void.
@UnderValued, what fantasy land do you come from? LOL
I don't plan on trying to lie about the income BECAUSE of the divorce. Just to him until the divorce so I can save money without him knowing about it.
@vicious, he is still living in my house because I don't want to kick him out with nowhere to go. How is that leaving him with nothing? And I'm not over him, I do love him, I'm just over his selfishness.