A happy life feels like an impossible reality. I do not know what is wrong with me exactly. I mean I have a loving family, parents and two brothers who care about and support me.
Am I lazy because my parents are enabling me? Or am I lazy because I fail to see life’s beauty? Possibly my parents are enabling me by not requiring of me to have a job or help them out with the bills. They simply only wish for me to be happy. Although, if I do get a job, their support is readily available.
The idea of work makes me depressed because I imagine the work to feel lifeless. What is wrong? Maybe I am immature. I hate the feeling; it is uncomfortable to think of myself as remaining ‘unaccomplised’. Yet, I lack the motivation and will to do better.
I want my life to be so much more, but do not know how to start. I am turning 26 at the beginning of next year and am dreading getting older. More so, I am afraid of my life remaining stagnant and the same. I think I appreciate what I have, but something just isn’t right.
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Is it possible that life is not about one’s own personal satisfaction? It is as if there’s a selfishness where I am not willing to give of myself to benefit others, bring happiness to another. I am mostly concerned with the question: what is life really about? I should mention that I am quiet-natured and have slight cognitive struggles. This has cause to doubt myself. Please help give me insight. Be honest. Thanks :) I really want to get better but am at a lost.