Because i am depressed a lot, i usually have low energy levels which makes it harder to just exist. I feel like it cost more trouble to live then i would gain anything from life. Like, i think i would pass the opportunity to be alive if i was given a choice before i was born. I always have this emptiness inside of me that does not go away no matter what.
The only reason i would not consider taking my own life is because i don't want to hurt my family.. Should i just stick around for them? I also still have this hope 1 day things will be better. But the older i get, the more my hopes begin to cease.
So what makes life so great and why are you happy to be alive?
BTW: Please no Godish answers. I sought God with everything i had in me and He still would not fill my emptiness, i don't believe in Him anymore. (That not being the only reason, at all)
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Thanks for the answers, it was hard for me to pick the best one between angel and north. Both answers were great and helpfull. Bless both of you. @D: It tells me i love my family to much to put them through anything like that. And i still hope somewhere inside that there is more meaning to life and that i will someday find my purpose (if there is such a thing) @Anonymous: Both of us need to just keep going and hope for the best i guess. I hope you find the answers i got helpfull too. Take care