You need to be outside (or at least by the window) then you will appear on Street View. Once Google has found you there it will be able to index your meaningless existence for everyone to see.
Sometimes they don't list EVERY person with your name on Google. Or else, it's in hidden searches. Or, they don't know about you. Or, someone of authority kept you off the search list. Or, it's due to the website not letting you see all of the search results.
if you have any social media with your username as your real name if you search up your name most likely it will show somewhat picture of you or just your information, if that helps at all.
I'm sorry to say, that means you don't EXIST. If you were simply dead, there would be an obit somewhere. If you were alive there would be a birth certificate, drivers license and so on. No, I'm sorry but you just don't exist.
And oh, by the way, regarding google-ing yourself? They say the more often you do it, the less special it becomes. But it wont make you go blind.