I think I have depression. I didn't tell my doctor but told her my symptoms. After a blood test she said to go to the Uni counsellor to see if I have anxiety. I went but the assessor said it's not in his area to diagnose me, but unofficially, he said I have depression and anxiety. He recommended an independent counsellor for me. I'm currently to see this counsellor at the end of April.
I can't take it anymore. I feel I'm slowly dying. I'm so weak and helpless. I force myself out of bed, but can't do anything. Everything feels a 100x the effort, always crying, light-headed and dizzy because I have no energy to cook, hate talking because I have to force a smile, takes hours to sleep and when I do it's for 12 hours.
A few years ago I told my parents I was depressed, but they were insulted (as if it were their fault) and didn't take me to doctor. So I haven't told them about the above ^^, but said how weak I feel. My parents believe I'm not feeding myself properly (which is true, but they think it's because I want to stay skinny) so they're bringing me home from Uni for a week (to basically feed me). Humiliating, but at least I'll be eating.
I don't know how to cope right now and what to do next. Should I go back to my doctor? Wait for counselling (though the only reason I'll last that long is because I'm going home for a bit)? Something else? Please help.