I have a question?

your very existence validates your existence. if someone made you feel otherwise, remember...Misery loves company. It's no fun to be unhappy alone. That is NOT your problem, it is theirs.

People see and appreciate Life differently. Because primarily we enjoy individuality, even with the lack of true appreciation of the word. Each person is in level of their consciousness, even if one tries to bring the answers to their level, it will still be incomplete. Because for as long as answers require to be explained, it will always be relative. But if the person who seek such truth and he successfully found it, then for himself there is no explanation needed. Lies have equal Truth in opposite polarity, even what is deemed true is still in relative truth expressed above the tolerances that determines Lies from Truths. Just imagine a world that is blatantly just say the truth, do you think that there will be order? I think not. Say a child asking his mother, why his father left. Would it help to say, that his father frolics and copulate with the secretary, because she is more erotic and sexy? Or someone asked by his boss, as to why the delay in say production. Then the answer would be because the worker woke up lazy, and hateful of the boss, and he finds the boss ugly and stupid. Will it help their tenure? Extremes of good and bad are equally bad. Which will be easier," Go in peace, your sins are forgiven". Or dude, you are to spend all eternity with the fires of hell feasting on your soul tormented for eternity in eternal damnation because you without stint of remorse deserve it....so die...hahahahaha (villain laugh)?

I m trying to get my head around excist .

Good question, pop culture America lies because it can lie without penalty or rebuke. With enough money and anonymity there becomes less of a need for character and virtue. What takes its place is a false sense of 'good' that appeals to our ears and eyes.

2 Timothy 3 But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3 without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5 having a form of godliness but denying its power.

God bless you,

Hmm. That's odd. You assume your meager, confined societal culture to represent all of earthly existence. How provincial.

If it's the US that holds you captive, then you suffer under merely 5% of the planet (while the most oppressive and gauche, I would helpfully add). My advice would be ESCAPE RUN FOR YOUR LIFE AS FAST AS YOU CAN. That'll do.

I am sure that you are referring to the preachers on TV and their helpers.
Maybe you should rethink your claim.