My husband & I have now been married for 5 years. Almost all of our siblings but my sister have had children. Now we got the news that my sister & her newlywed husband are 2 months pregnant. Since we've found out it's been nothing but calls to me on how excited everyone is & how excited I must be since we're so close. I am happy for her but yet it deeply hurts for me. I am trying my best to be thrilled & excited the outside & the inside.
No one once has thought of to ask either before my surgery or now a year later to ask me How I feel & how I felt to make that decision. No one other than my husband that is.
Trust me I know there is adoption & we have intentions on doing so later down the road; when we can afford to adopt. But as most know there is still that pain of not being able to have your very own.
I just want to know how others who can not have children deal with this. I feel like I'm being a bad sister to be wallowing in my sorrow at her time of happiness.
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Also I can not have a reversal because they cauterized the tubes completely since they could not risk putting a different type of metal in my body with my pacemaker. And just because we decided to have it done doesn't mean we wanted it done. It was & still is the best decision for my health. But it doesn't make things any easier