I'm a failure at life and love and being my own person. I'm about to turn 26 and I still live on my friends couch, have no good job prospects, just got a simple possession ticket bc of my friends weed, and I've never had a single date in my life. I'm ugly
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and hopeless with girls because they want a guy who can make money and provide. I've got a bachelors degree yet I deliver subs for 5.25 an hour. If I found a girl I liked they usually stop calling when they find out I'm living on a couch. I've also got a dui from 7 years ago on my record that doesn't help. I'm basically at my peak of success and I'm miserable. My parents don't call me anymore and most of my friends are now so much more successful than me that they don't even recognize that I exist anymore. Maybe if I kill myself they would remember I was around. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel so I'm ok with going into permanent darkness.
Our 16th president, was also a failure for most of his life. He was depressed, and had low self esteem. He did not put a bullet in his head. Instead he endured, and went on to accomplish great things. Ironically, it was his enemy that put a bullet in his head.
You are ONLY 26 years old, for gawd sakes. Do you think you are the only one to fail in love? Do you think you are the only one to fail at life? Do you think death is better than life?
You seem to see the glass as half empty, rather than half full. Perhaps part of your failings are your attitude? Instead of thinking of death, why not think of how you can succeed in the things you failed at? And what is this being your own person? I don't even know what that means. You are who you are, and that is good enough. Were you born mentally defected? No. Were you born deformed? No. Were you born inferior to all others? Nope.
You say girls don't like you because you don't earn enough money? Ask yourself, are those the kind of girls you really want? Gold diggers?? The kind of girls that values a person by his wealth? If your answer is yes, i don't know what to tell you, except there are a lot of better girls out there than that.
$5.25 an hour? So what? If you stay with that job your pay will increase. Sounds like an entry level position. You have a bachelors degree, and that is something. When a management position comes open, you have a degree and hopefully a good resume. Many people are high school drop outs, and are in a much worse situation than you.
People come to america from other countries, with nothing. They work hard, preserver, and do well. The problem with americans is they expect the world to be handed to them on a silver platter. Well, it isn't so easy. Surely if a foreigner can come here with nothing and make it into something, you can do it too.
Permanent Darkness? What? Go outside and soak up some sunshine. Lastly, people that take their own lives hoping others will pity them, are mistaken. Nobody, except your family and loved ones will suffer. To the world, it would be as if you never existed. So why hurt your loved ones? Bad idea, and so selfish.
"Bullets" are permanent solutions to temporary problems. At 26, you're still an ignorant inexperienced kid. All your experiences, especially negative (how you respond to and build on), will (hopefully) build enough character that you'll be a giver, and not a taker.
參考: I felt like that for a long time, until I found my purpose, my reason for living (find yours: it will be worth it, but it may take years..). It's all good, now.
Unfortunately, a LOT of people with BAs/BSs have ridiculously low-paying jobs.
<Maybe if I kill myself they would remember I was around.>
They sure will! "Hey, remember when we had to change the carpet because So-and-So's brains, urine, and feces were all over the place? Good times..."
Now stop that self pitying. You'll do ok, you're just in a slump. You're hansome. You're young. You've got a BA. At least you've friend's with sofas to sleep on :)
Your special, unique and deeply loved by something bigger than all of us God. I don't know if your religious or anything. But I think you might need some drive in your life to pull yourself from the darkness. Because you can. Find something you really like to do and work at it with all your heart. And when the dark side starts creeping up on you. Fight it out ,feel the positive in your life. There's so much to see and do. Your life's not done yet. The decision is yours to keep going or stop. But I suggest talking to someone like a psychologist. Just to vent out. Think positive!
參考: Me :)
OMG! I might have it worser.I might not even have a couch to sleep on.
If thats what God says so let it be.........I dont know where Im going to end up.Like you should see how God made me, but he wants me to live according to his will. You know I can't move a mountain but I know my God can.
I'm sorry but it's your own fault you still live on your friends couch. I mean if you obviously don't like your life right now then it's up to you to CHANGE that. You can't just expect everything to fall into place perfectly..This isn't a TV show, It's reality..Meaning YOU have to take control of your own life, people aren't just going to hand you your accomplishments! You've got to work for it!! Putting a bullet through your head would mean you're a coward, using death to get away from your own problems that other people deal with every day. Don't end your life because you think you can't do it, you've barely even lived a life at all! You're only 26! Anyways take control of your life and turn things around on your own accord. Others can't and won't do it for you.