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I'm sorry he did this to you. That's something NOONE deserves. All of the blame is on him, so you don't have to feel disgusting.
I'm glad that you're thinking about getting help - that's very good and brave of you. I highly recommend that you do set up an appointment with a therapist and work through this. It's your choice if you choose to tell anyone else (your parents, friends, etc,) and/or if you want to confront your brother. You don't have to protect his reputation either, by the way. If letting people know what happened will help you, then do it. And know that you're not obligated to tell anyone your story either. That's just fine as well.
I want you to know that experiences don't make you any less of a person, and you're not dirty because of what HE did. I know a lot of survivors feel that way, but just know that you're not dirty or corrupted or anything like that. I hope that through therapy you can regain a sense of ownership over your body.
I wish you all the luck and support.