I'm female, 17, just ended high school.
My god these past few days have been sucking. All school year I have been dragging myself through every day, trying to ignore the bad days and just move on from them- hoping for summer to come faster, and now its summer and I'm not enjoying it at all. I thought it was school that stressed me out but no, apparently it's everything that stresses me out.
For the past few days I couldn't force myself to clean my freaking room- its a MESS, and every summer i organize, recycle all of my clothing for a fresh start but now i have no motivation to , so I'm hoarding. Yesterday I was out with my friends and still felt so weird and off balance. Today I woke up with a bad cough and I feel quite sick but I dance and I REALLY didn't want to miss my dance class and I went. My dance teacher is someone I really try to impress- because I like and look up to him so much, but today was completely terrible..
Usually I try to suck in my stomach and hold my posture but today once again I had no motviation to and he saw my stomach hanging out and I wasn't following his dance instructions so he got angry (he never gets angry with me) and he was like "okay.. suck in your stomach!" I felt so FAT and gross when he said that. I was just so out of it today and he probably looks so down on me now.
I am supposed to dance with him at a show on Sunday but instead of being excited im so stressed out, and im stressed out from my dirty room, and im stressed out from my restlessness, and im just stressed out from life!