I'm 20. I was working as a waitress at this Vietnamese place that my older brother works at and he knew i was jobless so he helped me out. I was slower to catch onto things and would make a few mistakes. What also doesn't help is i am quite mousy, timid and unconfident so i was always seen lower to the workers who never spoke to me. I just felt really out of place and unwanted. I did the job well but after 3 months i quit.
Apparently they wanted to sack me ages ago but the only reason they didn't is because of my brother. They said that i thought the world was against me and i didn't wanna help myself. It really hurt to know they didn't want me there for ages but just kept me there cos of my brother. It makes me glad i left.
I feel like i can't get by in this life being me, I'm always looked down on. I've been applying for other jobs and it's been a struggle to find a new job. I'm really sensitive so i take rejection pretty hard. My brother says i need to grow thicker skin and just get on with things otherwise I'm gonna crumble in this world. I just want to die because i find this all really hard.