how do you forgive yourself?

Dear Jane,

Thank you for posting this question. I am Lilyevangeline, Jedi Sage. I am here to help, and will answer any questions that you might have.
The actions you did (i.e. chew, spit) could be a habit of yours developed over a long period of time since you were young; so when you are on an "auto pilot", the brain automatically triggers/performs this function "chew, spit". All you need to do is to put this behind you, Jane. It has happened, and it cannot be undone. Why spend the miserable moments remembering the things that has been done wrong? What is done, is done. So just tell yourself that, although things might have gone wrong, there is a chance for redemption, and the chance of redemption is in the now. So now you are reading this you should be considering "kicking out" the bad habit and start a new life. Revan turned to the dark side, but he was memory-wiped and he turned back to the light. If he has resisted the dark side, you can, too. Return back to the light. Tell yourself you regret the things you have done wrong and if that happens again I will not make the same mistake again or I won't let that happen again. Or pray to god, tell Him, "I have done wrong and I beg for your forgiveness." then, you might feel better later on
and, it is not a waste :) when money is spent, good things will return to you, so it's like an exchange. Understand money is only an exhcange currency.
But anyway, start saving money if you could, and try to work hard at your studies so you can get a well-paid job in the future.
Good luck, and may the peace and joy be with you too :)

yours sincerely,
Lilyevangeline (Jedi Sage)
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Have a beautiful & wonderful day and may the force be with you :)
Bye Bye :)

I don't think that's a big enough reason to warrant forgiveness.

How about choosing not to care and forget about it?

Find the root as to why you did it in the first place. Once you find the root, you'll be more content with reasoning. Peace and love.