I regret a lot.
I regret a bit too much.
I was just about to fall asleep and, as per usual, I start thinking of things that I regret and I realised, I regret pretty much everything I can remember.
I regret going out to formal last night.
I regret eating that mcdonalds.
I regret talking to certain people.
I regret doing certain things.
I regret not being a talented person.
You know, I have no talents really.
Everything I did, I gave up on, but you know what.. I have no interest in doing things to be talented in.
I'll regret that soon.
Oh it's so stupid.
But I don't know how to stop regretting things.
I don't do bad stuff.
I don't sleep around or anything... like, I don't do things that people generally regret doing. Such as, doing drugs etc.
It's just everyday things.
Such as today,
I regret getting up at 11. Waste of a day.
I regret not eating until 5 because I got sick.
I regret not booking tomorrow off work because I'll have to work sick.
I regret going out last night because I had a terrible time.
I regret eating mcdonalds as my meal.
I regret spending so much money on absolute shite.
and so on. I'll not bore you with the rest.
WOO, I really should have regret as my middle name huh?
But I do not know how to stop regretting things.
Yes, I should accept me for who I am, but I can't stand myself.
So that's easier said than done.
OH FIRST CLASS PROBLEMS.
what category do I even put this under?
更新1:
I only leave the house to go to work really. I'm a waitress. And other than that, I'd maybe go to a club at night about once every 2 weeks. I have social anxiety so I don't like crowded places or talking to strangers. I'm fine waitressing though because I'm completely fake then. So I feel like a different person and gain confidence from that but once the uniform comes off, I can barely talk to my family without feeling like a stranger.
更新2:
also, my anxiety is not diagnosed, as a side note. I'd never say this to people I know or a doctor.. I'd never say this to a person face to face.
