My life is great. Honestly, I have amazing friends, an amazing boyfriend, I am always having a good time and I love my life at the moment.
I don't think my life will ever be better than this. I used to be depressed all the time up until about two years ago, and than my life became amazing, but it's not gonna last.
I know right now I'm not gonna do anything with my life. I literally am
not good at anything. I hate kids so its not like I'd ever wanna raise a family, and I don't see myself doing anything in life but being miserable. I'm supposed to graduate thia may but I wont because I don't have enough credits because when I was depressed I failed a lot of classes so not graduating basically eliminates any success in life, and my parents are gonna kick me out as soon as I turn 18 so I'll have no where to go.
I'm honestly not even sure why I was put on this planet, I haven't done anything for anyone. I think I was just a mistake, they happen I guess.
But, I guess my question is should I just end it now while I'm still happy so I can at least die happy, or just wait.
Honestly the only thing That's really keeping me from doing it are my friends and boyfriend. I don't want to put them through that. I just I don't want to live but I'm trying to put them before me cause I care about them so much... I'm so conflicted and I don't know what to do.