So, lately I've just been feeling really down. I don't want to say sad so much as..like..dull? Like everything else is in color, but I'm just a fuzzy black and white image (if that makes sense.)
I've found myself thinking A LOT about death, but not about suicide. Really morbid things like 'When i die, I'm just gonna be a body in the ground. 100 years after that, no ones gonna know who i was. I'll just be a gravestone.' I've also been spending a lot of time on the computer playing City of Heroes. And I mean like, 8-10 hours of just messing around on it. Then even when I'm not on it, i have daydreams about being a hero and saving the day, or being a villain and doing something really badass. Most of the time i feel like i don't belong here, like someone is trying to fit a puzzle piece into an already completed puzzle. I sleep a lot, more then i ever have. (12 hours, normally.) And I'm also getting agitated and angry really easy, over the littlest things. I cry a lot to, just out of no where.
My older sister says i have depression, but my mom says i don't. Can someone tell me if i have depression, or if I'm just being a moody teenager who needs to get over it?