My life is very messed up. What did I ever do wrong to get this?

Times are hard.
Especially for a student with no way of income. Dont EVER think that no one want to hire you it's just no jobs are open right now with your high qualification. Dont take it as an offense, take it that you just have to wait for the economy to be in fullswing before you can get a well paying job.

Also, if you care about your dad you dont want to leave him while youre mother is having problems. Stay strong. Its not like you could save anyone ill regardless, shes sick. Crap happens. There's nothing you can do for your family except donate your time and care.

Dont kill yourself man, you may not think so but it will make a HUGE difference. Besides, killing yourself will just get you a ticket to hell. And if you dont think things could get anyworse than now, imagina hell.

All I can tell you to do, is read the bible. Not only will it help you get through this but it will give you something to believe in. Something to live for if you believe theres nothing else. Jesus will save you, I gurantee you.

And no, I'm not some preacher here just trying to make you a Christian, Im a young girl and I frigured this out myself. I almost killed myself, God saved me and he can save you too.

Goodluck man.

Ok man, I am in the Army and if there is one thing the army ever told me that was true it is this. Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem! Don't kill yourself. Just hang in there. the economy is **** right now. When things start to turn around you will find yourself once again in the crosshairs of businesses. I know it is hard to just wait it out and continue applying but it is what needs to be done. If you have to just get a crappy minimum wage job or something that isn't in your field of study and ride out the time there, while still applying for a better job. As for your mother, I know it sucks having a sick mother, I used to work in a hospital, but just try to remain positive and send good thoughts her way. Pray for her if that is your thing. Good energy can do more than any medicine can in some cases. Just try to remain hopeful and positive. Things will get better.

Also if you really find yourself contemplating suicide find someone and talk to them. Even if it is a suicide hotline. Even if you have to call your best friend. Just call someone.

This is a question I have pondered often. I rationalize a decision to end it in this manner..... if there is life after death, and assuming God/Jesus is merciful and all sins are forgiven before you were born, and if forgiveness means heaven awaits then the only loss is more years of hell on earth and there is no downside beyond the impact to your friends/family. The difficulty I have in utilizing options such as therapy is that the people who are trained and paid to help are just as messed up as you and except for the fact that they are "paid" to help you until your number of insurance covered sessions is exceeded does not give one a sense of comfort. There are a few genuine "church-type" folk who can help but they are so far and few between it's hard to know if the search is worth it. Best of luck, the world is really not much fun anymore - too many people, too many problems.