I really think that god is punishing me by having me living in this world. I do not enjoy my life, and I think my life is miserable. A lot of things in this world are about luck, and I just don't have any of it. I really want experience an accident that will take away my life, and insurance will pay my family so that they have money to live.
Well God gave you this life to live. You had no say in the color of your eyes, your race, family, or even what planet you'd be born on. Considering you believe in God, I'd say to live your life for Him.
Technically you don't have to (just saying) but it might be better if you live.
First there is the fact that maybe this is just a bout of sadness or you're depressed.If it is,you need to get help.I'm not saying start chugging Xanax,always avoid meds if at all possible,but seeing someone will at the very least allow you to see it from different perspective.This is my number one recommendation if you're considering suicide.
You have a family,and from the sounds of it,they like you around.That right there is a good enough excuse.I'm sure they'd rather be sitting on a lumpy sofa and eating ramen noodles than missing you (or worse,having to pay for an expensive as hell funeral)
There is also the fact they're may not be an after life...fear is a good way to keep people from offing themselves right?
Or better yet,hope.Life might suck now (and it certainly seems like your ENTIRE life sucks when you're depressed) but wait it out a bit and 98% of the time it gets better.I know it's hard to see that when you're curled up in a fetal position sobbing your eyes out(*coughiwasdoignthatabout4hoursagocough*) but trying to push through can help.
Just tonight I was having thoughts like this (just end it/no one likes you/your life is pointless/you know there is a gun right down stairs,right?) but these are the things that keep me from doing it.
But I'm not a professional,and assuming you are indeed clinically depressed,I can't relate that much.I'd REALLY look in to seeing someone at the very least.It's not natural for humans to WANT to die.There is no shame in it AT ALL.
You really need to contact a suicide prevention hotline NOW. You need to talk to someone who has been in your frame of mind to see how they overcame it. You feel that your life is miserable; well how can you change your situation so you won't be facing the things that are causing you such misery now? What if you were in a completely different surroundings--if you are in a city now, what if you were in the country, out in nature, away from people causing you hurt? What if you had a job you enjoyed, or volunteered at helping others? When you concentrate on helping others, sometimes you don't think of yourself and your own condition but just of how you can alleviate their suffering. In turn, this selflessness will bring you joy, and may give you a reason for living and change your thinking completely around. Situations change, and what you're experiencing now may not involve your whole life. Think of what you could do with the remainder of your life. Please talk to someone now.
oh honey, im sorry u are going through that. but u know what? u were put on this earth to serve God.that is why u are alive and that is why i am alive. we must. Dont commit suicide, dont mope around. don't like ur life?- change it. u dont like ur job?-get another. dont have the skills? -to go a local community colllege for a night class and learn a new skill. u can do anything, u just have to want to try. i fel the same way and i found Islam and i am a much better person. Islam may not work for everybody, or at least some people refuse to even look into it, but i found a peace that i would have paid millions and would have given everything i owned just to feel it. and now i have it and live it. i would look into it. it encourages u to grow, and to prosper and be among good company of those who are as devoute as you. believe me, its unlike any religion i have ever seen. the community treats u as if they have known u their entire lives and the greeting, is one of the angels, "peace be upon you" = Assalamu alaykum. BEAUTIFUL . look into it thru a reputable islamic website and who knows?- u may find what ur missing i ur life :)
God is not punishing you He loves you as He does me its just not time yet for Him to intervene. God gave us the desire to live although you may think death is a easy way out nobody truly desires to die. Luck is not what the world is about and i know you don't believe me and i used to not believe this either but things will always get better it wont always be like this. And you say that you think of your family to have money your family doesn't give a damn about money they want you here with them alive. Do you know how fukcing selfish that you sound, how could you want to put that on your family. You rather make them suffer over your sufferings than to deal with life? I am just telling you that i know were your at and though it may not be the same situation i understand. I was suicidal i was in and out of psychiatric hospitals until i was 16 i wanted nothing more than to be dead. I wanted all my pain to go away. Its not that easy you will see i promise things will always get better ive lost love ones and gave my family hell and in the end you regret it and im glad i am here and i plan to spend the rest of my life making up for the pain i have caused to others. THINK if you don't live for yourself live for your family.
i have a friend who feels the same way you do. i know life can be terrible sometimes, and it feels like it is never ending but from some one who has been through hell I know that things do get better in life. I am not a religious person but god is not punishing you, if there is a god i know he wouldn't randomly hurt you. I am so so sorry you have to go through pain but things do work out in the end just try your best to try and experience life at its fullest, the more you try to get involved in the world around you the more opportunities will present themselves to you.
Are you married? Do you have children? Do you have a loved one? Do you have parents? Do you have brothers or sisters? Do you even have a dog? Appreciate what you do have. Don't leave them because they love you and want you to be in their lives.
you don't have to live. if you want to die then walk along the street for a while. especially if you find a road where a lot of people drive drunk. like near a bar or something.