我今年來Canada, 本身帶住熱情, 自信同興奮ge心來, 我以前間int school / HK 果時幾popular, 多fds. 但我諗今日完全相反, 我係int student, 頭幾日都同int student一齊, 不過竟然7成都係大陸人, 同佢地不能用ENG交流 + 佢地自已都係用Chinese交流. so 根本冇興趣識...
我就去識左幾多Chinese girls....但係Canada d 生活boring, 我又lonely, so 我weekend不停去約d女出街, 但係唔知系咪太rush+jerk...好多女仔被嚇親...我又同其中一个女表白失敗, 所以problem係好多Chinese girl 都以為我系果d playboy, 成日識女仔...之後d女都冇理我...問心其實只係我boring想出街, 冇企圖...只係對一个女有興趣....講真, 比女仔杯葛好hurt
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到regular school day, 我係freshman, 上堂果時d人都係同返自已d friends 坐埋一齊, 仲有要係Chinese同埋一齊, Black同埋一齊, white...so on.. 佢地都好happy, 有話題, 我會覺得mo la la過去會好怪, 去唔同ethnic group 就更怪...我係Vancouver, 咩multiculture...other group d 人根本唔會show 你...太多chinese, 唔知係咪有stereotype....真係自己人同自已人玩.....本地人最多做classmate or 見到面就what's up....
我承認我係有歧視d大陸人, 佢地唔係唔識speak Eng, 係根本冇心講Eng, 我都唔知佢地來Canada做乜, 日日講中文 ...我同佢地講Eng係得, but 人地又5 show 你...我真係想學/講 Eng. 佢地幾乎要上ESL, 我就上regular class
班上面根本冇个識ge人
最大問題係我性格變左, 冇左自信, 內向, lonely, 返學等放學, self-criticism 同沮喪, 連識Canadian born Chinese 都冇信心, 怕自已Eng屎, 我好想去識new friends, 但最後又淆底
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完全係2個人lor, Canada d 生活得好差, lonely and fearful...以前都唔會
can anyone help me??? i know my biggest problem is 心態
我都有research 同 read d article to help myself, but go back to school 又做唔到