我覺得好冇安全感..我好鍾意佢.但係我成日覺得佢唔太鍾意我..有時諗當初佢追我可能都係因為寂寞...呢三個月我同佢講過幾次分手..頭兩次係因為覺得佢玩我..溝我只係為上床or打發時間....最後兩次係因為佢成日唔搵我....我地三至五日見一次.....每日send 幾個sms..我諗我都唔算好煩啦...如果正常ge情侶....呢個時期應該係熱戀期...應該會成日掛住對方架..所以我覺得好冇安全感....
同佢一齊三個月..頭一個月講左兩次分手..果時佢仲追緊我...之後當冇事又一齊返...第三次講分手後隔左一日...我又搵返佢...叫佢哥哥.....之後又一齊返...佢話我好飄忽...一時話分一時又話冇分.....
到最後呢次...中秋節前一晚..因為我尿道炎唔想同佢咩咩.......所以就拒絕左佢....第二日佢同我say sorry 話唔應該逼我.......我同佢講:""其實我都想.但我果度病左,所咩咩時會痛....次次同你咩咩之後都會痛.."" 唔知佢係咪誤會左我有性病.....佢冇覆我sms.....直到夜上我問佢做緊乜....佢好求其咁答我話做緊野..之後又唔覆我....直到我三點幾打俾佢.....佢聽電話話o岩o岩先收工..我問佢做乜唔覆我..佢話好忙....佢次次都係咁答我.......我都唔知信唔信佢....定係我唔識體諒佢......我知佢好忙.....但冇理由一d時間都抽唔到出黎....至少收左工可以覆返我..加上我之前同左佢講中秋節想同佢出去....但佢好似當左冇一回事咁...於是我好嬲咁sms講..LIAR, YOU SAID YOU WILL GO OUT WITH ME TONIGHT, LAIR WE ARE FINISHED....佢就話" up to you"
過左一日.....我又心軟打俾佢....send sms俾佢....問佢: really up to me? ....i know you don't really treasure...但佢都完全冇覆到..再隔左兩日我用另一個電話打俾佢..佢一聽到我把聲就話...: i will call back..但係一直都冇打返俾我.....我再打俾佢都冇再聽.send msg 同佢講...唔通我地連朋友都做唔成..我只想要你一個回覆...你答左我我會死心唔會再你..但佢都冇覆到..我懷疑 d msg 佢睇都冇睇佢就delete晒....
我知....我知係我自己衰...自己攞黎..成日掛分手o係口邊...但係我真係頂唔順.我平時嬲佢都唔會點乙水返我...甚至費事理我....試問我仲可以點...但我真係好鍾意佢..我好矛盾..佢宜家唔聽我電話..我反而好傷心..佢做到咁絕情係唔係代表其實佢真係唔多鍾意我.......所以直頭side口水同我解釋.......定係佢其實都有唔開心..但係唔想我再hurt佢所以唔聽電話.....我想知一個絕情ge人心入面其實有冇傷心..........係咪代表佢心入面已經完全將我放低...已經唔在乎?...如果佢真係鍾意我...就算佢真係嬲我成日話分手..佢都可以答我一句je...定係佢真係以為我有性病唔要我....(請標明你係男仔定女仔...最好講埋你拍過幾次拖....多謝)
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我feel到佢應該係鍾意我ge......佢同朋友一齊食飯有時都會叫我去...仲會好開心咁同佢地講我係佢女朋友..但另一方面我真係好懷疑..........佢唔理我又唔乙水我係咩意思.....佢口話鍾意我....但如果佢鍾意我點解唔多d 主動搵我.....追我果時又鬼咁熱情......定係已經玩厭左我...係唔係韓國大男人係咁...係我自己唔識體諒佢.........
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我同佢都係獅子座的.....但係點解佢咁絕情但我次次都做唔到......