我個心究竟諗緊咩丫..

我而家就有一個bf..但系就吾同學校,所以我都唔系成日見到佢,最近見面個次都大約有半年啦,但系而家都算系有起msn聯絡ge.但系同佢既關系成日都變,好多時都會搞到好薑..所以佢on個陣我硬系吾系好想on..好似想避開佢咁...但系我日日都會上自己個blog睇下佢有冇上黎,佢冇上黎既話我會好唔開心...同埋我成日都懷疑佢個心裡面有第二個女仔..(佢系我個bf既同學,我吾識佢)咁岩俾我搵到佢個blog,我日日都上去睇下有冇無人入佢個blog,我好多次見到有個陣都覺得系我個bf入去咁,所以每次我見到我個blog冇人入而個女仔個blog有人入就會好吾開心起度呷醋..仲有幾次見到我個bf起msn個人信息度打好掛住您丫,等緊您on之類既野我會覺得佢系同緊個個女仔講....其實我系唔系太多心..?其實我好想問佢但係佢吾知我有個個女仔既blog.我好驚問完之後關系會變得好差...
另一方面我個ex上個月add返我..個陣對佢無乜feel,佢重諗住同返我一齊..個陣我又同我個bf關系疏遠左所以咪試下..但系因為個陣我真係好愛我個bf所以就同佢提出分手做返朋友...點知分手後一個禮拜都冇,我先知原來我一直都放吾低佢.我日日都好掛住佢,佢好似都重鍾意我起個個時候..之後同佢起msn傾計我講d野都幾曖昧下..但係次次都吾知點解令到我好激氣....佢好似吾明我咁..其實我好想同佢講我愛您呢三隻字,但系想講個陣就會諗起我個bf..同埋佢有好多女性朋友,我吾知佢個陣重鍾唔鍾意我所以我淆底而唔敢講....
呢排同佢起msn傾計佢成日都吾理我,但系佢個陣時好似有玩fb,所以搞到我好嬲,我就無啦啦亂向佢發脾氣..叫佢以後吾好再搵我同理我...講完之後好唔開心,系咁喊,亦都好後悔...

我最鍾意既究竟系邊個...?
如果我要搵返我個EX可以有咩方法?
我對我既bf系吾系太多心?
可唔可以搵個人幫下我......