First of all, I wish to say I am very sorry for what happened to you. Nobody deserves this kind of experience. It's not unusual for us humans to suppress certain painful events. We do it to protect ourselves from the pain - I have personally suppressed many unpleasant events in my life - That's why you failed to think about it until now. I know it's going to be hard for you because you'll be forced to experience the sad memory all over again. You have to be strong. You must do it to prevent the same tragedy from happening to other girls. If you're afraid why not seek the help of a professional, such as a counselor who can help you deal with the feeling? You should also find someone to talk to, perhaps a friend or a family member.
Be strong! You can do it. You just have to believe that you can. It will soon be over and you'll be able to move on with your life. This beautiful poem "In myself I must believe," can help you. You can find it on
www.islandlili.com by clicking on Blog. You must say the words with conviction. Many find solace in that poem. It's my favorite poem. I wrote it when I was going through a difficult moment in my life. I hope it'll work for you. Good luck and stay strong okay?