Thanks so much for the responses (everyone beginning at Lily's response), I didn't think anyone would reply that quickly...Lily you really made me feel special even though i might not be... I think I should go to the gym soon just to blow off my emotions. I did meet this girl in my GRE prep class that told me to come to Oktoberfest with her this weekend but I still need to decide whether I should go or not..regardless, I think I'd feel much better going out with her but I still have to decide if I want to treat it as just being friends with her or something more because she was giving mixed signals..and I do think I'm feeling sorry for myself which is not good. I really appreciate the support and hope I can reciprocate someday.
Sorry i didn't address this in the last post, but I have been praying to God everyday of my life and I don't expect anything in return because I consider whatever I've already gotten a blessing. I just think that for some things, God wants us to pursue on our own in order to build character.