I finally decided to just tell the guy I have been crushing on for about a year and a half how I feel about him. I had to send him an email (I'm not worried about him spreading it around, he's definitely not that kind of guy), because I just couldn't muster the courage to say it via phone or to his face, but I am proud of myself for saying what I needed to say and getting it off my chest. I feel better, and I'm not expecting a reply that I want (not getting my hopes up). I am planning on taking myself out of that social scene for a while (we have many mutual friends) in order to heal. Did I make the right decision here?
honestly, i think you made the right decision to tell him. at least you were frank about it, but it could have been fetter if you have not told it, lest, you showed it. because as you said, you were too shy to tell.. you know what they say, if you can't tell it, show it.. :) good luck!