so hard to live in the world

first, you need to be aggressive to make contact with people, friends or not friends. learn how to open your mouth first with conversation....
you should not exspect everyone be your friend, if one out of ten people you contacted and who become your friend is enough.
try and learn how to look things in upper side. everything is great and good.------------- for example: your young cousin die. wow~ it is great, why? because he went to heaven in such young age lor.
don't like to go to school?. it is ok lar, but you have to keep self learning, self studying. remember everything around you can be learn. society is biggest school for people to learn.
always cry? it means you are very senseble person. lovely and full of life.

You can make a friend. Be brave!