Now heres the confusing thing; i sometimes will look at a guy, and like.. try to be them? like small things i notice, ill try to copy. like Frank Iero, He has a bunch of tattoos. I want everyone of them. I look at him a lot, but all i really want is to be like him, is this because i want girls to look at me?
so then there is the sex part:
Im a virgin, But sometimes ill think about having sex with a guy, but i think its because thats the only way i know when it comes to sex. Like.. i dont know what its like. I dont think about the guys body at all, i just think about the sex? And im not turned on by a guys body, only girls. and i think about having sex with girls too, but its just weird, because.. im unexperienced? I only want to have sex with girls. So whats the deal?
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And no, im not saying its all about sex, but i mean with guys, relationship wise, its boring, and im never like.. into the guy, its really just dull in boring. And then with a girl im always happy, and i feel 'butterflys' in my stomach.