我以前係比較玩有性冇愛ge人...但係我從來都唔鍾意玩感情..
但係同以家果個拍拖,,,我唔知點解好似好緊張佢,,,成日check佢手機,電腦全部資料,,,總之咩都check,,,我成日覺得佢係佢背後做咗d對我唔住嘅事,,,我成日都覺得佢有野呃住我....
有一次,,,我仲覺得既然佢可能係對我唔住,,咁我都對佢唔住...結果我個晚就出咗去「玩」..之後差d分手....不過一排之後佢原諒咗我...佢話佢冇呃過我,冇做過對我唔住ge事...
但係我唔知做咩,,,硬係對佢好大介心,,咩都唔信...
我好想信佢,,但係佢同佢身邊個個女仔都好曖昧咁..
最近我d情緒愈來愈唔妥....我好憎人呃我,,我成日都好想搵到佢d罪證之後就同佢嘈同佢散咁,,,但係我係鍾意佢嫁,,
但係每次同佢訓教個陣,,,開頭我都覺得好甜,,,但係唔知做咩冇啦啦,,,我會好想殺咗佢...
最近因為我check佢好耐之前同個女仔講我愛你..老婆...個d字....之後我嬲,,,係咁睇番晒佢日記....愈睇愈辛苦,,透唔到氣...但係我都控制唔到繼續查....
但係最大問題係,,,我個個fd都話我今次係真心愛佢,,我亦都成日同佢講我愛佢,,,但係有時我自己問心,,,我自己會答我唔係愛佢,,只係有目的(唔關sex事)..但係我又唔知係咩目的...總之係哩種感覺
唉......係我太緊張定點..???我好辛苦呀...我都好想信佢..但係我信唔到呀...一信佢就覺得好似俾人呃咁....
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