The other night i had a dream that God started talking to me. He said if i kill myself that i will save many peoples lifes from pain. So i woke up and I felt a pressence in the room. I asked if God was still there and if he was do something. He made the room ripple a little bit then i asked him to possess the cat and then the cat came over to me. I turned to see my partner and then she said "God" but she was still asleep still. He said it was ok to kill myself and that he was coming for me. Anyhow i went back to sleep at 2:39am and he showed me what would happen if i continued living.then i had a awful dream that everyone i love was hurting and it was all because of me. I woke up again and turned to look at my partner and she said "you have to be honest with yourself" again she was still asleep. I cant stop thinking that i have to kill myself because God said so. I have Dysthymia and i take Fluanxol for that.
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I have had dreams in the past where Jesus told me off for taking my life for granted but the other day was way different. Yeah i do hear voice and hallucinate from time to time but thats something over nothing. Im really freeked out buy whats happend... I dunno what i should do?
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Im not religious so i dont know where its coming from?
Fluanxol yes is a anti-psychotic but in low doses is used as a anti-depressant.
I had weird dreams and experiances before i started the medication.
I just cant seem to shurge it off. It keeps going around and around in my head and im more aware of things.