my boyfriend and i said i was sorry...what is going through his mind?

It sounds to me like he is also scared and doesnt know what exactly to do. Email him as a friendly reminder of the birthdays and say youre hoping to see him there. Then just be yourself. Youve got more to win than lose so talk to him but remember where you are and whose day it is so dont start something youll regret by ruining their day too. Tell him about willing to go to counselor to fix your relationship and to get you anger under control. Never use your medical conditions as an excuse for anything or youll use it for everything wrong in your life. These conditions can be controlled thru modern medicine but they cant help with a broken heart. Dont gavel over him bu let him know youre willing to do whatever it takes to mend your relationship and will work on future change, and dont get into a blame game with him as this wont help a thing but dont take the blame all yourself either. Perhaps with the help of a counselor you two just need to get your lifes and relationship back on track and move on. I see nothing disasterous here at all, except just a little communication problem so go for it and get him back. Good luck. Also you have my email if I can be of any further help whenever, please just feel free to use it

Don't text him. Either he knows its his son's birthday or not. It sounds as if the whole relationship is over. Next time you decide to live with a man and have his baby, please marry him. You have created many problems for yourself. If you were married to him, he would need to discuss the problems with you. Since you are not married, he can just walk away. Which is what he is doing. Good luck.

You sound obsessive compulsive. Make up your mind about him and just take action.

I can't believe you are going through something like this at 35. And you can't knock him for being on a boat forum instead of being home. You are on a forum instead of preparing for your child's birthday.

I would say let him go and pass in everying because you and him had done. And can't go back, so just let him and make yourself relax

From your previous posting here, all I can say is if there is one couple that should not be together in this world, this couple is you and your 5 year boyfriend. My suggestion is the two of you should cut your loses and move on. Your boyfriend works hard and put in allot of hours into his work, you on the other hand seem to be to controlling.

I am not sanguine