What is this in English?

我試下睇下你覺得ok唔ok啦...

Walking back and forth (徘徊) in an illusion (幻覺), Love, Hate, Jealousy(妒忌), All because of him... I had thought of thousand of ideas just to show him my care, but why in return (換來) are always dressing down (責罵) and tears? Does he know that, I really afraid one day I have to watch him walk away...Because of him, I already knew that there is no longer fairy tale (童話) existing since I was young...Can he tell me the truth? Please let me know that everything is just my misunderstanding (誤解) to him, wouldn't he?

我盡量譯既...Sorry...冇辦法,點都用左一個love字...>

Drifting in my imaginary world, affections, hatreds, jealousy, are all because of him....
I once thought of thousand of ways to express my devotion, but why does it always brought along tears and blame? Don't he know?
I am really afraid of a day when I will be watching the back of him as he is leaving. Because of him, since young, I have known that fairy tales do not exist....Can't he tell me the truth?
I wish that he would tell me that all these are just part of my imagination and misunderstanding.

Living in the illusion, because of her. I have been think of many ways to show my feeling to her, I do not want blame and tear anymore. I am really afraid someday she may leave me. I knew that fairy tales did not exist when I was a child. Can she tell me the truth? Please tell me everything was my misunderstanding to her.